The only thing you should be digging is a spelling book. The only reason anyone is even responding to you is because you're part of a side-show and we get to prod you, explore your self-loathing, and delusions.
No one thinks your hard, or cool, or even relevant. No one really remembers you and if they do it's vague at best. You're just some mutant who's here like a crazy ex-girlfriend on my porch that hasn't got hit with the hose yet.